What is it? There’s always a story behind a title. I’ve wanted to begin blogging for quite some time now. And I mean quite some time….
But because of some of my “perfectionist” tendencies, I was always WAITING for a clear sign from God-from the sky to know when was the “perfect” time, the BEST timing according to God’s will.
But honey, there ain’t no right time, and so here I am–just writing. Not thinking. Just doing.
During my 6 year struggle with Anorexia and Bulimia I’ve often wondered if God cared, if He even listened to my prayers, and if He saw me. Through several years of being hospitalized year after year and reaching dangerously low weights, and recovering to high weights that have evoked fear and brought on full-blown relapse, I constantly cried out to God. Lamented, prayed, pleaded, sobbed, screamed, and begged for FREEDOM. Hopelessness set in and I found myself concluding that my prayers didn’t matter that God saw this as my fault and had MOST DEFINITELY FORGOTTEN about me. And these thoughts were continuously exacerbated as people around me kept off, and avoided me. But even as I reached my lowest point through my struggles, as I was so sure that I would perish, that I was just existing, God reached into my mess and reminded me that He had not forgotten me. Daily He began to remind me that even though I may still struggle, He has not left me and will never do so.God the father reminded me that I was His “chick that is never forgotten”, hence the title. And beautifully through this struggle, He’s given me the beauty in writing, the peace I find from doing so.
I want to share my story. Shed my mask, be real, and encourage, enlighten, whomever may need to hear what I say, and/or connect to whomever needs to know that they’re not alone. That what they’re going through is not just happening to them.
ChicaNotForgotten is a place to help me get my thoughts onto paper, a sort of virtual journal of sorts, but to also share insights that God * has given me, whenever they come, and encourage those on their ‘own’ journeys.
In this you will find 3 sections, those being Letters from the Heart, Renewal, Restoration: Recovery; and Soul Food.
*Mind you because I’ve pondered on posting my writing for some time, some of my posts will be old, but my hope is to encourage, is to share, to be vulnerable–something I’m not good at doing face-to-face.
And finally, I want to say a BIG FAT F–U (yes I swore–but sometimes you just gotta say it!) to ED, and any other mental disorders, insecurities, lies, words, or WHATEVER it is that HOLDS us back from realizing our potential, reaching for it, and becoming the men and women that God made so beautifully to be.
*Note: Whether you are a Believer of Christ or Not, these postings are for you too. You don’t have to be a Christian to relate to whatever it is that may strike a chord with you. I pray that you are touched in whatever way, no matter how small, or big.
Remember you are not alone, you are not rejected.
You are NOT forgotten.
Wangui Muya ❤
“You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” Psalm 56:8
“I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, ‘You are my servant’; I have chosen you and have not rejected you.” ~Isaiah 41:9~